dear so-called bestfriend

i have begged to be your friend over and over
i am almost done, almost tired of begging and almost
to the point where i will not be there next time you try to
come back. i dont deserve the way you treat me. i would
never treat you the way you have treated me for years now.
when were friends, its great, but when you decide
that youre done again, you seem like such a different
person. a monster. someone i dont even know or have
never even met before, yet you and i have been friends for 10 years
you will regret all of this one day but im afraid it will be tooo late
if you dont change your ways, you will be alone and no one will care about
how it must feel to be you because you have made everyone who has
ever cared about you feel the exact same way. i have tried to tell you over and over
and you simply just dont give a shit. i never wanted to feel like i have wasted these past
ten years as much as i do now. it seems as if being your friend was a waste of time.
where could i have been if i just didnt care about you at all?
man i bet i would be in a much better place. you have given me a complex about
myself and made me feel like i was a horrible person time and time again
when will that boyfriend of yours, which you see as an object, wise up
and realize how much better he can do? i can count on one hand the amount of times that
you were there for me when i actually needed you. but when i think of all the times i
dropped everything and ran to your rescue, it makes me want to laugh and cry at the same time...
laugh because it was pathetic of me and cry because i would do it all again.
the worst part of it all is that while i am typing this, if you called i would be there. yet if you were
only sitting alone with nothing at all to do, across the street, and i called, you wouldnt even answer
and if you did, i know you would only laugh in my face. thanks again for being the worst friend one could ask for. and thanks again for the complex. ill most likely be there when you decide to get over yourself and talk to me. but i cant make any promises. i love you as a sister, and a best friend even though youre quite possibly the worst i have ever had. talk to you later...