you and you.

i have two friends who are always my on and off friends.
everytime were off, i think its for good. but it never seems to be.
i was friends with the girl first.
we were best friends, we did everything together. we basically lived together because she lives across the street from me so if she wasnt here, i was there. we did everthing. and talked about everything.
we were even saved and baptised on the same day.
and all of a sudden she decided she was "too old to be my friend"
so we quit talking for a while and i hated it
i cried myself to sleep so many nights.
she called me once out of the blue and asked me to go skating with her and a friend
cause we used to live to skate. so i went with them and i thought
we were going to be friends again and we didnt talk after that.
i still remember what i wore, conversations that we had and where we sat in the cafeteria.
we didnt talk for a while after this and then i saw her outside with her boyfriend (who will become the other "you") and i just decided to talk to her. we all three ended up sitting outside for 4 hours talking and
i loved it. we were all of a sudden part of eachothers everyday life again.
we started talking all the time and spending all of our time together. for spring break we all three went
camping and got drunk. haha we fell in a hole while trying to walk to the bathroom.
it was snowing and we were in gatlinburg in a tent. it was so much fun.
we drank a lot and then on valentines day we quit talking again. i missed them like crazy.
i cried all the time and had dreams about them every single night.
exactly a year later she texted me
and said she missed me so we started hanging out again and once again became a part of eachothers everyday life. it was fun. it only lasted for 4 months and the only reason were off again is because someone lied. i miss them, again.
she will always be a part of me though, so will he.
i will always be willing to jump and forget all of the "drama" to be on again.
this time though, im not so sure there will be another on
i miss them but i dont think that i am missed.
i would like to think that i am, but only God knows.
hmm...